What I mean is: does the trauma ever end after having had ECT? Over the holidays I experienced trauma when realizing I had no memory of having visited my mother in the nursing home. I also have not memory of having lost both of my parents, and my in-laws within a 15 month period of time. I spent time with family members that I had not seen for over 11 years. While at their home, my brother and sister-in-law spoke of the time period I mentioned. I couldn't even get a picture the size of a pin head in my mind. There is no memory of those days.

I am receiving information almost every day that lets me know just how much is missing because of the ECT (58 of them to be exact). What's even more difficult is being told I can do nothing about what they did to me. There should be no time limit on that type of crime.

Today has been a long day, and my eyes have been red and swollen. However, I have just begun my fight to try to keep others from going down the same path. My State Senator responded to some information that I had sent and he wants to have a meeting with me. I already have far more information available than what I will have time to present, and that is what I hoped for. I want him to be overwhelmed with it! Something needs to be done in this state. Michigan Government is very stingy with their information. It is extremely difficult to find anything on their Web site. I typed in every possible angle I could think of and got no where. It is as if Michigan has no guidelines pertaining to ECT, other than what they can do if your refuse treatment against the advice of the attending psychiatrist or doctor. Texas, on the other hand, has a great amount of information (easy to get to), and their laws are very strict when it comes to ECT. (Search: Texas Administrative Code (or rule)) I counted 25 pages after I printed it off.

Anna Q